miss ramadhan

it's almost 2 weeks since we celebrated Eid. but i really miss Ramadhan.

throughout that whole month, i felt rejuvenated, and really motivated. i did lots of stuff that i never thought i could do before. i sensed that i'm capable of better things. that i'm a better man.

but now, i feel very empty. hollow. like, what is the point?

i know Ramadhan is supposed to be the month of 'training', so to speak, where we trained ourselves hard so that whatever that we are doing will be continued until long after Ramadhan has passed, until we better ourselves even more when the next Ramadhan arrives, God permits. but, i don't know. it's just not the same.

does that make me a hypocrite? whereby i became someone else that's totally not me during that one month period, but after that i become who i really am? astaghfirullah, if that's who i am. i truly do not have such intentions.

which is why i really really miss Ramadhan.