so i told nabila about it, and she asked me if i'm excited. i couldn't give a definite answer, somehow.
"why not? you were the one who had been complaining about not being able to work all this while". true that. but, i don't know.
"why not? you were the one who had been complaining about not being able to work all this while". true that. but, i don't know.
ever since i got that employment offer letter, unknowingly, i have been keeping myself busy with the preparation for work, thus not giving me a time to pause and reflect if i am prepared mentally (and spiritually, and emotionally) as well.
actually ada lagi yang tak setel. i haven't got my monthly rapid pass, haven't found a pair of shoes to wear, haven't got a working phone line (now out of credit, and thinking of porting -again- to umobile), banyak lagi la basically. but those are just the physical ones.
actually ada lagi yang tak setel. i haven't got my monthly rapid pass, haven't found a pair of shoes to wear, haven't got a working phone line (now out of credit, and thinking of porting -again- to umobile), banyak lagi la basically. but those are just the physical ones.
and now that i have only one other thing to look forward to, namely the adidas King of the Road this sunday, which doesn't really require a lot of thinking but needs a lot of physical training which i think is lacking, so my thought has gone back to The Thing.
am i prepared?
i know this may not be the answer that you (or just i myself) are looking for. but it's quite a mix of everything. yes i have been anticipating this, but that's because of the super long delay from the supposed date of starting, which was this time last year. i mean, had things been as they were supposed to be i.e. if i were to start working november last year, just a month after i was supposed to complete my degree, would i be as eager to start working as i am now?
i don't know the answer to that question. suggestions?
and now that the anticipation or the long wait has ended, and i've confirmed to start next monday, i just don't know how i'm feeling. in some ways, i was dreading it actually; fellow MTs like jepah and izzat have been posting things about having to do homework and all. yes i know the first few months is classes, so that shouldn't be surprising. but i found myself dreading the prospect of having to bring home work to complete.
and then there's the fear of unknown... well that almost wraps up the whole thing actually. yes i do have this little bit of fear about how things are going to be now. eventhough it looks simple enuff now -wake up, work 8 to 5, go back, sleep-, but things are not that straight forward. i know my parents can handle themselves without me at home, in fact i was the one very much dependent on them all this while, but i don't know how things between me and my parents are going to be. leaving them in the morning, only to come back in the evening, and can only spend more time with them during weekends -if there's no plans with friends and the rest-. i wonder how that's going to turn out to be.
and how am i going to fit in the picture at my workplace. will i be enjoying myself in a new group of people? will they accept me, especially now that i've missed the first month with them? can i adapt, or will i be doing what i do best: isolate myself, at least at the beginning.
and what am i going to do with my first pay? who should i belanja the obligatory first-paycheque dinners? which and how many things in the wishlist will be crossed out first? when will i start saving?
well in short, i'm worrying to much. we all know the saying about how worrying is like a rocking chair; it gives you something to do, keeps you occupied a little bit, but it doesn't get you anywhere. i shouldn't really think too much about stuff, should i?
habes masa je tulis this entry haha.
am i prepared?
i know this may not be the answer that you (or just i myself) are looking for. but it's quite a mix of everything. yes i have been anticipating this, but that's because of the super long delay from the supposed date of starting, which was this time last year. i mean, had things been as they were supposed to be i.e. if i were to start working november last year, just a month after i was supposed to complete my degree, would i be as eager to start working as i am now?
i don't know the answer to that question. suggestions?
and now that the anticipation or the long wait has ended, and i've confirmed to start next monday, i just don't know how i'm feeling. in some ways, i was dreading it actually; fellow MTs like jepah and izzat have been posting things about having to do homework and all. yes i know the first few months is classes, so that shouldn't be surprising. but i found myself dreading the prospect of having to bring home work to complete.
and then there's the fear of unknown... well that almost wraps up the whole thing actually. yes i do have this little bit of fear about how things are going to be now. eventhough it looks simple enuff now -wake up, work 8 to 5, go back, sleep-, but things are not that straight forward. i know my parents can handle themselves without me at home, in fact i was the one very much dependent on them all this while, but i don't know how things between me and my parents are going to be. leaving them in the morning, only to come back in the evening, and can only spend more time with them during weekends -if there's no plans with friends and the rest-. i wonder how that's going to turn out to be.
and how am i going to fit in the picture at my workplace. will i be enjoying myself in a new group of people? will they accept me, especially now that i've missed the first month with them? can i adapt, or will i be doing what i do best: isolate myself, at least at the beginning.
and what am i going to do with my first pay? who should i belanja the obligatory first-paycheque dinners? which and how many things in the wishlist will be crossed out first? when will i start saving?
well in short, i'm worrying to much. we all know the saying about how worrying is like a rocking chair; it gives you something to do, keeps you occupied a little bit, but it doesn't get you anywhere. i shouldn't really think too much about stuff, should i?
habes masa je tulis this entry haha.
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